Akiva and Chessa Father Piece

Hey Guys. 

This is just my part of the poem.  Akiva will attach his part later. 

Give Thanks. 

My Father

Akiva starts with the song.

We come together on "Frightened."

I search for you my Father.  In the spidery fingers of his strong hands upon my spine. 

Tapping on his door late at night, his dark bear cave to keep me safe through the darkest times.  

From his bed, to heart to head I crawled on my hands and knees to seek your void. 

Yelling, throwing stones, the telephone slams with your lack of forgiveness and I beg one more bed to open up and comfort me. 

Pause-Akiva begins. 

*This Way 

*Either did to me without my permission

-Moment (Pause)

Then the silence creeps in and I start to search again.  Who will hold me, comfort me?  Where is the love coming from? 

(Play) Akiva begins

Pause-His Mother's 

The resentment boiling

Mama's womanhood spoiling 

because you weren't the man she once needed. 

Play-Akiva

Pause-Propaganda 

Chained to television screen, vodka, your leather sofa and a home without a single human soul to hear your cries when the voices come to haunt your sleep at night. 

You told me about your nightmares. 

About the way you see demons in the shadows, the evil faces that won't leave you alone. 

Pause-(The pressure in my chest)

The suffocating is killing me.  The little girl inside me cannot breathe.  She has been trying to hide. 

Let the operator disconnect your fears.  

FEel that you are needed by this growing female. 

The empty space is being filled. 

Play A

Monster in the closet is me.  Pause

Come out from those vacant spaces you find yourself in. 

I'm finding you again. 

In the melody.  The leaves on the trees. 

The ducks upstream. 

I am balancing. 

Watch me walk, see me fly, let me sing you my own sweet lullabye. 

Papa how I miss you.  Papa How I need you.  Papa how I miss you kissing me goodnight.